PFC Chapter 2360 Psychic Assault (5)
Chapter 2360 Psychic Assault (5)
Chapter 2360 Psychic Assault (XV)
Generally speaking, if a person has more than 1000 personalities in his body, it cannot be said that he is not seriously ill. Most people who confirm this fact will make a fuss about it and say that it is too outrageous.
This is indeed the case. How can one body hold more than 1000 souls?
But now someone told him that he was not as sick as he was, so David wanted to see how seriously ill Schiller was.
"How many personalities do you have?" David asked.
"I have only one."
"This is impossible."
"There is indeed only one, but it is broken into more than 2000 pieces."
David was speechless.
It seems that it is indeed more serious for one soul to be broken into more than 1000 pieces than to cram more than 2000 souls into a human body.
"How are you alive?" David asked curiously.
"Just make do with your life, and survive as long as you can."
If someone had answered David's question like this in the past, he would have thought that he was just being perfunctory, but it seems that Schiller is serious at the moment. But think about it, it's already this situation, what else can he do but make do with his life?
"Why did your soul break?"
"An accident," Schiller answered simply and concisely.
"You think I'd come and talk to you about mutants?" David said. "Why do you think so? Do you think I'm their representative?"
"No, I think you don't care about them that much. You care more about yourself, but your problem is that you are a mutant, so in order to solve your problem, we still have to talk about mutants."
David frowned deeply.
Schiller clutched the pen in his hand and said, "You may think that the root cause of your current situation is dissociative identity disorder, so you come to me and think that as an excellent psychiatrist, I can cure your mental illness."
"But in fact, your problem is not split personality at all, but that each of your split personalities has its own thoughts and abilities. What's important is the ability. If they don't have those super powers, then they are harmless."
"Just to society, they're making me miserable."
"If your other personalities do not have superpowers and do not pose a threat to society, your pain can be treated medically. But if the stress response of each of them will cause great damage in reality, then if this problem is not solved, no one will dare to treat your dissociative identity disorder."
David frowned and thought for a while. He had to admit that this was true. If those personalities only existed in his brain and could not affect reality, perhaps a psychiatrist could make them gradually disappear or merge.
But once they have independent thoughts and independent abilities, trying to erase them will definitely cause resistance, and once their strange abilities erupt, they will definitely cause serious harm. No psychiatrist dares to do this.
"I can erase them." David sighed and said, "But when one disappears, another appears again. My ability works on almost everything except them."
"So you promised Charles to come to me, and both of you hope that I can solve your problem." Schiller said carefully: "You know I will find a way to solve it, because you are really like a time bomb. Even if you go to the Andromeda Galaxy, you may blow up the entire universe."
"That's true. No one dares to accept me." David snorted coldly and said, "But they are right. Anyone who comes into contact with me will become unfortunate."
"I need to ask you first, who do you think you are? I mean the personality that I am talking to now."
"I am the real David Haller. I am his alter ego. I think you should understand that I am the real David and the strongest version of him." David turned his eyes away and said, "The abilities I possess are what David should have."
"What can you do?"
"Everything except making myself better." David said: "I can make my wishes come true and make the world change according to my will."
"So when did the accident occur?"
"A terrorist attack in Paris." David pursed his lips and said, "I witnessed my adoptive father being killed. I lost control and killed my superego. From then on, everything was out of control."
"Where is your ego?"
"He..." David paused and said in a slightly puzzled tone: "I don't know, I can't find him."
Schiller was silent for a long time, obviously thinking rapidly.
He could understand what David said. To some extent, this situation was somewhat similar to what happened to him at that time. Because of some external stimuli, something happened in his mental space, and then everything got out of control.
The only difference is that his tower of thought collapsed, causing his personality to break into thousands of pieces. David's superego, which was in charge of moral constraints, was killed, and the id, which represented desires and instincts, disappeared, causing personality defects, resulting in all kinds of strange personalities constantly emerging.
"Let's first analyze why you killed your superego after losing control." Schiller twirled his pen and said to himself, "Superego usually represents potential conscience and inner moral demands."
"If I'm not mistaken, you used to be a very kind person with high moral standards."
"That's true." David said helplessly: "David Haller is an introverted, kind person who has never done anything bad. He is a little fragile and sentimental, but very gentle."
"Like your father."
"Partially."
"There is no doubt that witnessing someone completely breaking the law and committing a murder has a great impact on your morality. You will wonder why the law cannot punish these murderers, why the law cannot allow you and your loved ones to continue to live in peace."
"These thoughts will be the culprit that kills your conscience and morality, and that's probably when the superego dies."
“Do you have a superego?”
"Of course." Schiller said, "But unlike you, I did not grow up in a place with universal laws and moral concepts. This leads to my inner conscience and moral requirements being different from those commonly used in today's society. So when I see something that goes against conscience and morality, I don't question my conscience and morality."
David nodded. He knew that this was the so-called distorted morality. As long as the criteria for judgment were different, it would be possible to never cross the bottom line.
"If I'm not mistaken, you actually had room to stop the terrorists, but you hesitated. Your high moral standards made you hesitate to kill people."
David finally opened his eyes slightly. He had never told anyone about this, including his mother.
David finally sat up straighter and began to listen carefully to Schiller's analysis, because he found that the medical staff might be a little restrained in their evaluation of Schiller's high professional level.
The key is not whether the guess is right or not, but whether one dares to guess. After having a certain identity and status, they are usually not willing to make such a decisive judgment because they are afraid of being wrong. Since Schiller said it, it means that he is very confident in his judgment.
"Your hesitation gave the terrorists the opportunity to strike. When you witnessed the tragic death, you were overwhelmed by incomparable guilt. At the same time, you began to hate the moral demands of this society, because it was because of these demands that you lost your extremely important relatives and your happy family."
"Then you killed this demand in an instant and killed the culprit who hurt your loved ones. Everything is traceable and logical. I feel sorry for what happened to you, but I'm afraid it was inevitable."
David was silent for a moment, but nodded. Then he said, "That terrorist was the first soul I absorbed. He told me that he wanted to change me, and this was how he changed me."
"Just as there is no power vacuum, there is no real lack of spiritual world in people. When reason is missing, there will be more chaos. When crazy thinking fills in, the structure is broken, and a new structure will take its place."
"But what puzzles me is that if you only killed your superego, the combined ego and id shouldn't give those personalities that much space. The disappearance of your id is the biggest doubt."
Schiller pulled out a scale from the side, looked at it and asked, "When was the last time you wanted something very badly?"
“Three months before the terrorist attacks,” David recalled, “I saw a great pair of sneakers in the window, and I worked for two months to buy them.”
"And nothing more after this?"
"No."
"How long has it been since you thought about your life goals?"
"It's been a long time since these personalities started bothering me. I never thought about it. I almost forgot about it."
"What about other desires? Appetite, sexual desire..."
David shook his head.
"Very good, it seems that your instincts are not working at all." Schiller's expression became serious, and David felt uneasy.
But this uneasiness soon turned into a hint of fear because Schiller went to flip through the book.
It was not enough to just flip through books, Schiller turned on his computer and started looking for papers. It was not enough to just look for one paper, he began a wide-area search.
"Is there any hope for me?"
"Don't be impatient, let me take a look." The more Schiller looked, the deeper his frown deepened.
Then he began to say, "We are somewhat similar, at least in terms of our ego."
"My instinct also had problems. He couldn't speak, but my symptoms were relatively mild and the cause was very simple. It was just some external factors that caused the instinct to be damaged. It usually didn't affect my life."
"But your ego completely disappeared. I speculate that there are two possibilities. One is that the huge guilt you felt at the time not only caused you to lose control and kill your superego, but also greatly hurt your ego, causing it to be killed as well."
"But the possibility of this happening is low, because if your instincts were completely killed, you would have gone completely crazy, two of the three pillars would have collapsed, and your entire mental structure would have collapsed. You would be lying in the hospital as a vegetable now."
"Since you can still move smoothly, it means that the pillar has not collapsed, but disappeared for some unknown reason. That leaves only one possibility: he is hiding."
"why?"
"Because of guilt." Schiller's finger tapped the mouse. He said, "It could also be disappointment, because it is your instinct to want to protect your loved ones, but at the critical moment you chose to believe in moral requirements instead of your instinct. He felt deeply disappointed by your lack of trust, so he hid."
"Do these beings really have personalities?"
"Don't you have a personality too?"
David was speechless. He said: "Before I started to have crazy symptoms, I never realized that I was not just me, but many of me."
"It's normal. People need some time to accept their own madness." Schiller clicked the mouse and said nonchalantly, "But it doesn't matter. You'll get used to it after a while."
David still couldn't refute it, because from what he saw when he read his mind, the doctor in front of him was probably really used to it, otherwise he couldn't imagine how a person could live normally with more than 2000 of himself.
"What do you think I'm going to do?" David asked.
"The key lies in your spiritual world." Schiller sighed deeply and said, "That's why I looked up the information. We must first solve your mutant ability, then solve those personalities, and finally find your true self. The problem is that the first two steps are too difficult."
"why?"
"Because those personalities of yours are too strong. They are strong in the real world, and they will only be stronger in the spiritual world."
Schiller thought for a while and said, "I may not be able to do it alone. We need to form a spiritual assault team to go into your spiritual world and rescue your true self from your chaotic personality."
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(End of this chapter)