Reborn, she saved the boy who was bullied to death

Chapter 198 This is her greatest pain

In her previous life, she was the only heir to Grandma Kang’s house. The first thing she did when she got the property certificate was to sell it!

At that time, a buyer came to view the house and was curious why the room was locked. Shang Qing replied that it was for miscellaneous items. The buyer was worried, so he found an axe and broke the door lock.

Unexpectedly, the contents contained Shang Qing and Shang Yang's belongings. Others might not have known what they were, but Shang Qing felt it was extremely unlucky. He had everything removed and thrown away.

At that time, Grandma Kang was already mad at her. How could she care less?

If Grandma Kang were alive at that time, she would have been so angry that she would have died if she saw that the son she had protected for so many years was thrown away.

Whenever she thought about how she had hurt Grandma Kang or Shang Yang in her past life, she would be so upset that she would collapse. So, from this life on, she tried not to think about it or pay attention to it. She really couldn't forgive herself in her past life.

In this life, she had this chance to be reborn. She had thought, wasn't this life meant for her to make amends for her mistakes? Why didn't God let her be reborn before Uncle Shangyang's accident?

She had once hoped that even if Uncle Shangyang rescued her, it would be fine. Then she must be able to bring Uncle Shangyang out of the water, and they must survive together.

But these were just extravagant hopes. Uncle Shangyang had become the greatest pain in her life. It wasn't a regret, it was pain. It tortured her constantly. Whenever she thought of him, her heart ached and she couldn't breathe.

So, in this life, Shang Qing has been making amends. During Qingming Festival, she burned paper money for Shang Qing and Shang Yang, which is why she made the appointment a little late. During Chinese New Year, she also took the opportunity to burn paper money for them.

This time, the first thing Shang Qing did after returning was to go into the room while Ji Xun was out and clean every corner of the room carefully and seriously.

On weekdays, when Grandma Kang and Ji Xun were not around, she would also go into the room to clean. She had a key, which she had secretly made after being reborn in this life, using Grandma Kang's key to make a copy.

It has been almost a year since she was reborn, and she has been silently guarding this little secret, just as Grandma Kang doesn't want to cause trouble to her.

But what Grandma Kang didn't know was that Shangyang's disappearance was connected to her. She didn't dare admit it. Yes, she really didn't dare admit it. She had been so vicious and terrifying in her past life that even she herself felt terrified and uneasy.

She knew she was selfish, and she was too afraid that if she admitted it, Grandma Kang would never forgive her. Then she would really be the only one living in this world. Then, what was the meaning of living?

Perhaps, if she really was in that situation, she would be completely desperate and completely unable to face it. Death would be her best relief. After all, she was a life thrown into the trash by her real family and abandoned. Apart from Grandma Kang, she was really just a person.

But since her rebirth, she's become even more reluctant to let go. She's loved, she now has such wonderful family, and precisely because of that, she's even more afraid of losing them. She admits she's selfish, and she'll guard her secrets even more carefully. Not wanting anyone to know, she lies, numbing herself. The better she treats Grandma Kang, the more she feels a sense of redemption.

Shang Qing didn't leave. She quietly closed the door, tiptoed back to bed, and closed her eyes, but she couldn't fall asleep. Her eyes were wide open, but in the pitch-black night, she couldn't see anything clearly, but she stared at the ceiling with such persistence, tears sliding down her cheeks without her realizing it.

At this moment, Grandma Kang was in Shangyang's room, gently stroking those objects that were so familiar to her.

"Qingqing is such a sensible and good child. As soon as she earned some money, she took mom and her sisters out to play. Mom was away for eight days. It was the first time for Mom to travel so far and see so many beautiful sights. It was wonderful. Mom took a lot of beautiful photos. Mom also brought gifts for you, do you like them?" Grandma Kang took out two bags of cheese from the bag and specifically instructed, "You two get one, but don't fight over it. Especially Qingqing, as the older brother, you can't always fight with Yangyang for it, you have to eat it together."

Ji Xun listened to Grandma Kang's mumbling to herself. He covered his mouth and nose to prevent himself from making any sound. His eyes were red and wet with tears. He couldn't stay here any longer. He hurried away, but when he returned to his room, his heart couldn't calm down for a long time.

At that moment, he truly felt the pain behind Grandma Kang's kind face. She was usually so optimistic and faced life with a smile, but her heart was probably already broken. If Shang Qing hadn't been by her side, she might have collapsed long ago.

At this moment, Ji Xun thought of his grandfather again, the old man who had loved him for more than ten years, given him more than ten years of hope in life, and given him a second life.

These were their loved ones, their most beloved ones. How could they really let them go as if nothing had happened?

Yes, people are no longer in this world, they have left. But how can their traces, their emotions, be erased?

Perhaps, at the time, with everyone's comfort and reassurance, I truly believed that my loved ones had gone to heaven, and that they were watching over me. When I missed them, I looked up at the sky. However, as I grew older, I realized that it was just a wishful thinking.

But what can you do? Even if you know it's fake, you'll still stubbornly deceive yourself into thinking it's real. Your beloved relatives are in heaven, watching over you.

Just seeing similar people, things related to them, or even the slightest trace of them at a certain moment will become a breakthrough for the tears.

What can people do? Life is fragile. No one knows when someone will leave.

Life, from the moment we are born, is already on a train. We don’t know where this train is heading or where it will pass.

On this train, people will come and go at any time, and some will naturally get off along the way, leaving for good or only to be seen again after a while. Appreciating the present was the most frequently mentioned theme.

But who can really cherish the present and be free of desires and demands?

Because of the unknown, because it never stops.

What is the present moment? And how can we seize and cherish it in time?

It is unknown whether Ji or Xun.

He only knew that from the moment Shang Qing appeared in his life, from the moment she repeatedly snatched him from the hands of death, he had made up his mind. This was the present moment, Shang Qing was his present moment, the present moment he had to cherish.

Shang Qing is everything to him, his life! No! It should be said that she is much more important than his life!

"Grandpa, are you okay over there? Have you become a little life in a happy family? Grandpa, I'm fine. I have people who love me, I'm very happy, don't worry."

Holding his grandfather's will, Ji Xun huddled in the quilt, his eyes already blurred by tears.